July 8, 2008 Update: I found it! I was looking through some old letters and I found it tucked in a Gibi shoebox. I'm so happy! I love this poem book and now I can read it again. Over and over again. :)
Dammit! I lost my Pablo Neruda poem collection!!! Can't seem to find it! Anyway, just wanna share my favorite poem of his:
Tonight I Can Write Pablo Neruda
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Write, for example, 'The night is shattered and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
Through the nights like this one I held her in my arms. I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.
She loved me, sometimes I loved her too. How could one not have loved her great still eyes.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines. To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.
To hear the immense night, still more immense without her. And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.
What does it matter that my love could not keep her. The night is shattered and she is not with me.
This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance. My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
My sight searches for her as though to go to her. My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.
The same night whitening the same trees. We, of that time, are no longer the same.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her. My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.
Another’s. She will be another’s. Like my kisses before. Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.
I no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe I love her. Love is so short, forgetting is so long.
Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer and these the last verses that I write for her.
Mommy She sent me an sms and I wanted to share it with you guys:
"Until one morning, I'll wake up and find I'm thinking about something else, and then I'll know the worst is over. My heart might be bruised, but it will recover and become capable of seeing the beauty of life once more. It's happened before, it will happen again, I'm sure. When someone leaves, it's because someone is about to arrive... I'll find love again." -Paulo Coelho, The Zahir
Now I just hope, this holds true eventually for me coz I hate this feeling I have right now. I hate feeling this hurt. I hate feeling alone.
It all started with Dawson's Creek... yeah i know i know! Sad start but it was good the first few seasons! Don't worry, i didn't get to finish the whole series and I don't intend to buy the dvd of the WHOLE series! Just the first 3 seasons would be fine with me... ANYWAY!!! After that sad sad phase of Dawson's Creek, there was a long break from watching TV series, I don't know, maybe there was no TV series worth watching at that time... well if you count the emergence of Reality TV as TV series! I think after Dawson's Creek, the TV series era got a bit quiet... maybe too quiet! I think that long phase of silence brought about today's onslaught of SOOOOO many TV series... that is fucking up my mind (but in a good way)! hehehe! Let me list all the TV Series I'm juggling right now, and the extent of it I've watched:
CSI: Las Vegas (Season 01 - Season 06) - done (waiting for next season/episodes)
Smallville (Season 01 - Season 05) - done (waiting for next season/episodes)
Lost (Season 01 - Season 02) - done (waiting for next season/episodes)
Drawn Together (Season 01 - Season 02) - done (waiting for next season/episodes)
Coupling US (Season 01) - done (series ended)
Coupling UK - currently watching
Grey's Anatomy - currently watching
Entourage - currently watching
Prisonbreak - currently watching
House - next in line
Always loved CSI Vegas, the other CSIs suck! Smallville is getting a bit boring, I hope this is the last season! Lost is great and I can't wait for the next season this coming October! Drawn Together is so fucking funny and I can't wait for more seasons! Coupling US sucks! Coupling UK is 100x better! Too bad Coupling UK is off the air now! Grey's Anatomy is cool, when you watch it you'd also wanna be a doctor! Entourage is one of the coolest series out there! Prisonbreak is cool and keeps you at the edge of your seats everytime! House is damn funny and I can't wait to watch it next!
I'm going crazy over all these TV series but I love watching it! Hope no more comes out for a few month so I can try to finish some of the series. Please!?!
It has been a long time since I wrote in my blog... My schedule recently opened up and now I can put another entry: I have a new mission and I hope you guys can help, I'm in search for the PHILIPPINES best hamburger... This idea came up when I was browsing the television and came across Oprah's talkshow. The episode was I think, "The Best Burger in America Discovered!" and her friend Gayle was in search of the best burger in America and it got me thinking... The Philippines offers a lot of delicacies and fantastic foods but the best burger? Hmm... So here's my new mission: To find the best burger in the Philippines! I guess this includes "American-themed" restaurants like TGIF, Bennigans, etc. Ideas and suggestions are welcome! Just leave a comment below and I'll check out the burger for you! :)
Hey everybody! Our Gadgetgeeks kiosk in V-mall is now open! You guys and gals can visit us at Unit V-374 Third Floor of the V-mall shopping center (formerly known as Viramall)! We sell iPod, PSP, other gadgets, and their accessories! Check us out and bring your friends/family with you! We offer the most affordable prices! Thanks and see you there!
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Just got back from Tagaytay with the family (well, actually most of the time I was with my friends and some "new found friends") for the Holy Week and my back hurts from the sunburn... After Kaskade's gig on the 12th, I only got to sleep for a couple of hours before I had to drive to Tagaytay. To tell you the truth, I was still pretty messed up while I was driving to Tagaytay, good thing I had my sister and her friend to accompany me... arriving at Tagaytay, I had to sleep the rest of the morning since I really needed it to gain some strength and sanity back! When I woke up I took a dip in the pool with my uncles and cousins... spent the night eating and eating and eating (did I already say eating?) and eating! Hahaha! The next day I swam again and this time the sun was really out and I loved it! I spent the whole day under the sun, hence the sunburn! :) That night, Matthew picked me up and we went to Tagaytay Highlands to join the rest of the gang (who just came from a daytrip in Batangas)! We ate dinner at Venice's auntie's house (Thanks Ven! The dinner was yummy!) and chilled out at our "new found friend" Candice's house! We had a great time and stayed up playing poker, drinking (again?!?), and chatting the night away! The next day, we went to the Highlands Country Club to hangout in their jacuzzi and get some sun (again?!?)! We went to eat lunch at our house (Yummy Bulalo thanks to my Grandma!) and hang at the clubhouse! We went home after that to divert from the anticipated heavy traffic on Easter Sunday!
For me, this was one of the best Tagaytay trips I've ever been to... I really enjoyed it! The next trip the gang is planning is either in Siargao or Boracay so I hope it pushes through since my sister recently passed her Thesis (finally!) and is graduating... She definitely needs some relaxation so I hope the planned trip pushes through! See you on our next roadtrip! :)
We went to watch Kaskade's gig at the Coconut Palace... It took a long time for Kaskade to come out (which usually happens in events like this) but it was ok since Karl Ty aka Superfly was mixing some nice house music while we waited! Not to mention, a lot of booze and smokes were available so our patience wasn't really tested... personally, it only made me anticipate Kaskade's appearance much more... call it "delayed gratification"... When Kaskade went out, he went out with a bang (literally!)... when his first song entered, there was a fireworks display and the crowd went wild!!! The crowd was great except for some VIP (note VIP) who were topless (not women unfortunately)... man talk about embarrassing! Anyway, the crowd became mellow towards the middle of the gig but when songs like Steppin' Out and It's You, It's Me were played, the crowd again errupted! I don't know, maybe the other song were new to the crowd and they didn't know it or they were just too messed up to realize what was happening... Hehehe! All in all, the atmosphere was great and the tunes were awesome! Kaskade was great and he mixed the song well! It was around 2am or so and we were all waiting for him to play Everything and when it came on, the tired crowd errupted again... it was I think his last song and we all went home after his set! It was around 3am then (actually, I don't remember co'z I was pretty messed up too!) when we arrived home still with Kaskade's music playing over and over in our heads! Kaskade's gig was a trip! Can't wait for Chicane this coming May... See you there!
Thai Prime Minister Thaksin stepped down from his seat the other day... Because of protests in the streets and political turmoil, he was asked by the King to step down and he followed... I was thinking: Wow, this guy had that much integrity to step down from office and call for unity! Where are politicians like these in the Philippines?!? Well, yeah he was asked to step down by the King but then the act of stepping down just to unify a nation is indeed commendable! I mean WOW this is the first time I've ever heard of a politician stepping down from power just to please and unify a nation! I think this shows how he loves Thailand more than he loves the power. Well, I don't know his real story and the REAL reason behind him stepping down but the mere fact that he exchanged his seat for the sake of peace is really amazing! I just wish that all politician would think about the nation and the people first other than himself much like what Thaksin did! I think politicians are all hungry for power especially here in the Philippines, yeah some are good politicians but they eventually get sucked into the system. Our political system in the Philippines is a lousy system. Most politicians are greedy and are all hungry for power. Once they have the power, they can't get enough of it and can't let go. Money and Power are what drives our official and not compassion and self-sacrifice! I hope that what Thaksin did can make other officials think that power, greed, and corruption kills a nation... I know this because it is killing the country that I love, it is killing the Philippines...
Just came back from the Hong Kong Asia Pacific Leather Fair 2006 exhibit and man it was sooooo boring... I tell you if it only wasn't held in Hong Kong, I would not go! The fair was really a waste of time and effort... though we had a few inquiries here and there but nothing substantial like an on-the-spot order or something. I've been to past APLF exhibits but there were more clients then and our location was a prime location. This time the whole Philippine delegation was placed near the comfort room where people passing by were either lost and asking for directions or looking for the restroom! I will tell my uncle not to join the next APLF exhibit anymore... (well, unless they put us in a really good location, that would be another story! hehehe!) I think people coming to the APLF are more concerned with raw materials rather than finished leather goods... heck even the finished products from china were snubbed?!? Simply a waste of time and money... though I met a lot of pretty interesting people during my trip so it was not entirely a waste, experience-wise...
What happened this morning was nobody's fault... or was it?
Almost 70+ were killed during a stampede this morning in the Philippines because of a gameshow. I was shocked upon hearing the news and immediately turned-on the TV to confirm. The TV screen showed images of thousands of people surrounding a barricade where motionless bodies lay. As the camera panned, people waved at the camera as if nothing tragic had just happened. As the bodies in the middle lay motionless, beside one body sat a man crying, mourning the death of a loved one...
These were the images that left me depressed... 70+ people... dead... all because of a gameshow??? I thought it was so sad to see people that have lined up for 5 days now get trampled by other people who wanted to get in first. I really don't know who's to blame with this tragedy... The people who were too greedy so as to trample and step on people infront of them just to be the first people in? The security guards/producers who barricaded the entrance preventing the people to form lines and enter in an orderly fashion? ABS-CBN/Wowowee who entised the people to camp in the venue for several days with the hopes of instant cash for the first 300 people? Who's to blame really?
I think there is no one to blame but everybody involved... from the greedy people pushing and shoving just for money to the producers of the show, they all should be blamed for this tragedy. But you know? Instead of blaming somebody, we should just help... Let's stop the pinpointing and just try to give a helping hand to the victims...
After all's said and done... The smoke clears... Alone stands the victor... The champion of a nation... Manny Pacquiao
I just finished watching the Pacquiao-Morales boxing match on TV. It was a delayed telecast but I still got goosebumps waiting for the start of the main event. This was a highly anticipated rematch between the two since Manny lost to Erik Morales the last time they met. The last time, I knew Morales would win because physically, he was better... Morales was an intelligent fighter, a more experienced fighter, and had the longer reach between the two. This time, I was all for Pacquiao... oh yeah, Morales had all the physical traits for a better boxer but in this fight, he didn't have the most important one... HEART
Another factor for Morales' defeat, in my opinion was the fact that he lost some weight for the fight... I'm sure everyone that watched saw that Morales was beginning to wear down after the sixth round and was exhausted when the match ended... You can see that the dieting and the weightloss depleted his body and he was not as effective and as explosive this match compared to their previous match where he beat Pacquiao unanimously. Not to take anything away from Morales, but Pacquiao was simply the better fighter this time...
The telecast was ok, less commercials than I expected (maybe because it was, like I said, a delayed telecast), and the video-feed was really clear. There were only two things bad about the telecast:
Quinito Henson (announcer/host) - He has been announcing and giving blow-by-blow accounts of almost every sporting event for a very long time now and until now he doesn't know how to do it. The idiot doesn't know anything about the sport sometimes, he just speaks good english (sometimes)... Yeah I know that we should all be proud of Manny (except for all that singing and album-making)... Heck, in the ring, I'm a great fan of Manny. He's a great fighter and I am proud of him. He's one of the reasons that makes me proud to be a Filipino. But my Filipino pride is not as biased as Quinito Henson... A REAL sports announcer/anchor should not be biased because he should be calling the match in the middle. I didn't think he did his job well this time. I understand that he's proud of Manny but as a sportscaster, you should be more objective... he should have critiqued both Manny and Morales! Both Morales and Manny should be given praises, and both of them should be cited with their faults... The whole time I heard Quinito, he was saying "Manny this... Manny that..." Hey Quinito! You biased fool!!! Brian Villoria did a better job in sportcasting than you!!! I think it's time you retire!!! Now I know why John Stockton didn't want to talk to you during your coverage of the NBA Finals, I wouldn't also when you call me Johnny Stockton... You're not his buddy!!! His name is JOHN not JOHNNY!!! IDIOT!
Mike Arroyo (first gentleman/"house-band" of the President) - Who the hell cares about Mike Arroyo?!? Why does he have to go LIVE and sit beside Manny in the interview after the fight?!? I don't care if the President's on the phone and wants to talk to Pacquiao, you don't need to be there and show your face on TV... just leave the phone with Manny and let him talk to the President alone! I just hate the fact that politicians use Manny Pacquiao and the success of others for their own political gains, acting as if they had something to do with their success... Did Mike Arroyo train for months for this match? Did he spend Christmas and New Year away from his family just to get ready for this match? I think NOT! The fat ass didn't do anything for Manny's success! He just wants to bask in Pacquiao's limelight and act as if he was the reason for the win! You wanna be a hero too like Pacquiao? Well instead of staying in a million-dollar a night hotel room just to watch the match, stay in a cheaper hotel and donate the million-dollar to charity! Lots of starving children in the Philippines can eat for a whole year with a million-dollar donation! Try being a hero on your own you lump of lard!
The title for the this blog entry is only "Manny Pacquiao" since I believe that he is the only hero in this story. He is the only one who triumphed amidst criticism... and I hope that his only wish of unity for the Philippines would be taken to heart by the Filipinos like he took the Filipinos in his heart... Mabuhay Manny Pacquiao!
Just came back from Hong Kong! Damn it was real cold there! Good thing jackets and other winter stuff were on sale so I bought a jacket, long-sleeves, and some collared shirts. The rest of the stuff I bought were pasalubong for Dang and my friends. Coming back to Manila, I was a bit jet-lagged and groggy because of lack of sleep. I thank God that the weather here was not as hot as I expected so the climate change was not that drastic. Truthfully, I missed Manila... I missed Dang... I missed my friends... I've been away from Manila for almost 2 weeks (1 week in Tagaytay and the other week in Hong Kong) so it was kinda a long time. I can't wait to sleep on my own bed, meet up with the gang, and of course see Dang. Work starts Monday so I better make the most out of this weekend.